Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Bah, Humbug!

I started my day today with a “doom and gloom” attitude.

I woke up on the living room floor in a house that is 98% empty. The last time I slept on the floor was when we found out about Charlotte’s broken little heart --lying there now I can almost feel the same fear that I felt back then.

I looked out the window and there was such a heavy fog that I could barely see past the end of our porch. GLOOMY.

I walked into work, angry about the very fine mist that was falling from a sky full of gray clouds. Anyone who knows me can vouch to the fact that my hair + any amount of moisture/humidity =


Today is the 31st, and like I have said before, this is always a BLAH day. I’m sad most every day, but the 31st makes my heart ache more than usual. That annoying little box on my calendar marked August 31, 2011, just serves as a painful reminder that it’s been another month since I have snuggled my Bear. Three months down and a lifetime of 31st to go.

So let’s see…

1) Floor sleeping

2) Gloomy fog

3) Roseanne Roseannadanna-esque hair

4) Missing my little lady

What else could we throw into the mix?

Sigh.

Moving.

Tonight will be the last night that Matt, Maybe, Stella and I spend at 908 North Danielle Drive. The closets and cupboards are empty, the furniture is all packed up and ready for a move across town to our new/temporary rental house. I knew it would be hard, but I think that I underestimated my emotional attachment to this place.

Deep breath….It’s just a house. It’s just a house. It’s just a house.

Someday we’ll have a home again.

3 comments:

  1. Kristen & Matt, yes you will have a home again. Hang in there. HUGS!!!

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  2. Kristen,
    I'm sad for you........I'm angry for you......I'm excited for you.......... wish we lived closer because I'd LOVE to run over there to give you a HUG!!!!
    You, Matty, & Charley are NEVER far from our minds!!! We continue to pray for you daily. In fact, to be quite honest, I find myself looking back through your blogs on a regular basis....just to see that precious, angelic, contagious smile of your Bear!!! (THANK YOU for sharing!!)

    You have BEAUTIFUL pictures/video footage of ALL the WONDERFUL memories that you, Matty, & your little angel created in YOUR HOME! HOLD "THEM" TIGHT!!!!!! (maybe tomorrow at the closing, make the buyers sign an agreement statement that will allow you to visit at ANY time!!!........just a CRAZY thought!!)
    One more thing & then I promise I'll stop.........I LOVE the hair!!!! It's very volumizing!!!!! & better than the drowned rat look that I have to deal with!! ;-)
    Take care dear!!! Love ya girl!!!

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  3. {{{HUG}}} Thinking of you....sending you one GIANT hug....and quietly chuckling at the picture you posted. We must share the same hair. ;)

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