All of Me

On the morning of May 31st, I sat down at this very computer and updated my Facebook profile with the following...

"Matt Hammitt, the lead singer of the Christian band Sanctus Real has a son that was born with HLHS. They recently launched a new nonprofit, the Whole Hearts Foundation to help children and families affected by congenital heart defects. Check it out....great song and a portion of the proceeds go to this organization!"

The song "All of Me" was the first track released from Matt's new album Every Falling Tear.  It came out that morning and immediately tugged at the heart strings of heart parents around the country.  To quote Matt, "Our natural reaction is to build walls between ourselves and the things that can cause us more pain.  But what if the thing that can cause you the most pain in your life is another person?  And what if that person is your own child?  You have to ask yourself...Am I willing to fully give my heart to someone knowing that I might lose a piece of it?"

Matt and I both knew that despite our greatest fears we would love Charlotte with every thing that we had...and thats exactly what we did.  Yes, we were scared, but amidst the fear we discovered a depth of love that we never knew existed.  

I posted that Facebook update on May 31st, about 20 minutes before we took Charlotte to the hospital for her lung scan.  Little did I know that my fears would become reality in just a few short hours and that our lives would be forever changed.  

As hard as it is, when I hear this song I have to comfort myself knowing that we gave ourselves 100% and loved without boundaries.

"All of Me"

Matt Hammit, Every Falling Tear

Afraid to love, something that could break,

Could I move on, if you were torn away?

I'm so close to what I can't control

I can't give you half my heart, and pray it makes you whole

You're gonna have all of me, you're gonna have all of me,

Cuz you're worth every fallen tear, you're worth facing any fear

You're gonna know all my love, even if it's not enough

Enough to mend our broken hearts, giving you all of me is where I'll start.

I won't let sadness steal you from my arms

I won't let pain keep you from my heart

Trade the fear of all that I could lose, for every moment I share with you

You're gonna have all of me, you're gonna have all of me,

Cuz you're worth every fallen tear, you're worth facing any fear

You're gonna know all my love, even if it's not enough

Enough to mend our broken hearts, giving you all of me is where I'll start.

Heaven broke into this moment, it's too wonderful to speak

You're worth all of me, you're worth all of me

So let me recklessly love you, even if I bleed

You're worth all of me, you're worth all of me

You're gonna have all of me, you're gonna have all of me,

Cuz you're worth every fallen tear, you're worth facing any fear

You're gonna know all my love, even if it's not enough

Enough to mend our broken hearts, giving you all of me is where I'll start

You're gonna have all of me,

Cuz you're worth every fallen tear, you're worth facing any fear

You're gonna know all my love, even if it's not enough

Enough to mend our broken hearts, giving you all of me is where I'll start

It's where I'll start 

The album Every Falling Tear was released in its entirety earlier this week with a portion of the proceeds going to the Whole Hearts Foundation.  Lucky me...I got it as a gift yesterday!!  I think that you should all go check it out!