"Fix You"

Many of you may have read the comments section of my post yesterday and saw mention of the song "Fix You." I heard this song for the first time, ironically, just a few days before our world was turned upside down...which is strange, because the CD was released in 2005. I immediately came home, downloaded it and played it for Matt. I loved it.

Here is where everyone takes a quick break to download the song, YouTube it, whatever tickles your fancy. Then come back and listen to the song while you read the lyrics below. I promise you, its good.

"Fix You" by Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down on your face

And I...

Tears stream down on your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down on your face

And I...

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you.

When we were contemplating music for Charlotte's service there was no doubt in my mind that I wanted this to be played. Only now, the meaning of the song had been transformed. I initially thought of it as Matt and I doing whatever it took on God's green Earth to help "fix" her sick little heart, but my husband so incredibly pointed out something different...

Maybe it was Charlotte who was sent here to fix US. Maybe God saw that we took things for granted. Maybe he needed to teach us to open our hearts and to love despite fear...not to hold anything back even if it meant that our own hearts would break in the end. And now that we do find ourselves in this dark place, it serves as reassurance that there is hope. God will guide us home. Our bones will eventually know happiness again.

One day we will be reunited with our little Charlotte and at that time we will again be whole...or rather...FIXED.